Sometimes I have enough of my own perception of everything. So much so that I am willing to spend an evening being bored to death. Just to stare into space. Just ‘ins Blaue hinein’. I can’t tell you exactly how that process goes, but I can tell you that it took me 56 years of … Continue reading My rich worlds of experience
When I finally passed 50, I still felt myself young at heart. I have a thriving social life and am the undisputed champion of weekly potty dating. But menopause proved to be my biggest challenger. One day, during an intense date with my boyfriend, I felt an unprecedented excitement. Not because of an exciting fling, … Continue reading How I lost control
Can remember I used to always think I was a maverick. One of those who had it figured out. As a maverick, in my choice of clothes, in my need to stay single, without wanting children, because imagine if my children inherited those same genes! And did everyone really have to participate in that house-hugging, … Continue reading Outsider, me
It crept in slowly. For about 5 years now. Suddenly – especially the youth – address me as: “Madam”. Of course I should be happy about this. After all, everything is better than Miss. And at Christmas I received a Christmas card from an aunt of mine, gracefully addressed with: “Miss I…” Well, how old-fashioned … Continue reading What’s in a title?
There once was a woman named Pix, who was known for her extraordinary ability to sleep. From the time she was a baby, Pix slept much more and more soundly than other children. Her parents often joked that she hibernated like a bear, but when Pix became an adult, her sleeping habits remained unchanged. Pix … Continue reading Energetic life
Personal After a rocky and rainy Springtime, I am so looking forward to the Summer sunshines and rays. It seems there’s is no ending of last Autumn. It just keeps going on. And it is now effecting my good health. I’ve been a little sick like the Flu is finally catching up with me, although … Continue reading What’s life like, these days?
The loss of a loved one is a painful and difficult experience. My brother died two years ago from bladder cancer. The emotions I experience are often very variable. Sometimes I am sad and want to Wh’app him something, other times I am angry to be left alone as the only child and sometimes I … Continue reading Been two years
On Christmas Eve, as I flew through the streets as an old, somewhat forlorn and withered Christmas angel, I could not escape the cheerful melodies that sounded from the decorated houses. Everyone seemed to be infused with the Christmas spirit, except me. And while I was once chosen as a Christmas angel. I looked at … Continue reading X-mas spirit
I lose Coco, my feline cat friend, quite often, although I often hear vague noises at a distance. But today I searched and found her in my bathroom. She was playing with my shower drain. She gets it out miraculously every time. And then she throws and rolls with it like she loves it. And … Continue reading Coco’s little secrets
Whenever I read the news again, I really don’t miss that feeling of despair afterwards. I would prefer to flee. Escape from this chaos. Of wars. What people do to each other. Which is not necessary. Well, I really believe that there should be room for everyone. For everything that lives, blooms and grows. So … Continue reading Day dreaming
