The loss of a loved one is a painful and difficult experience. My brother died two years ago from bladder cancer. The emotions I experience are often very variable. Sometimes I am sad and want to Wh’app him something, other times I am angry to be left alone as the only child and sometimes I … Continue reading Been two years
On Christmas Eve, as I flew through the streets as an old, somewhat forlorn and withered Christmas angel, I could not escape the cheerful melodies that sounded from the decorated houses. Everyone seemed to be infused with the Christmas spirit, except me. And while I was once chosen as a Christmas angel. I looked at … Continue reading X-mas spirit
I lose Coco, my feline cat friend, quite often, although I often hear vague noises at a distance. But today I searched and found her in my bathroom. She was playing with my shower drain. She gets it out miraculously every time. And then she throws and rolls with it like she loves it. And … Continue reading Coco’s little secrets
Whenever I read the news again, I really don’t miss that feeling of despair afterwards. I would prefer to flee. Escape from this chaos. Of wars. What people do to each other. Which is not necessary. Well, I really believe that there should be room for everyone. For everything that lives, blooms and grows. So … Continue reading Day dreaming
Two boys were shooting their football back and forth. I watched that scene from above from the balcony, down there on that square.Suddenly there was a 2-year-old boy who was watching, longingly. And one of the bigger boys saw it and kicked the ball to the smaller kid. He did not hesitate and while he … Continue reading Reading between the lines
Being a woman I look back on making a lot of ‘wrong choices’. The way I look at it, I needed to get a driver’s license und thus a car to take me places. A roof over my head. A job that provided me with money. A man to have children with and not necessarily … Continue reading This state of urgency (of womanhood)
So far, so good. During my adult life, already 5 cats adopted me to be their housemaid. The one that provides cuddles, drink, food and candy. I’m pretty sure they like my company, for they don’t seem to plan an early escape. I must have been pretty young when I found out that cats and … Continue reading My genuine love for cats
I often wonder where and how I can find my inspiration again, best practice. Till I read this, this evening. To be silent the whole day, see no newspaper, hear no radio, listen to no gossip, be thoroughly and completely lazy, thoroughly and completely indifferent to the fate of the world is the finest medicine … Continue reading Best medicine
I don’t like cycling. The ‘thing’ does not yet have a battery and not even an autopilot, and partly because I hate cycling so much, I categorically refuse to buy such an expensive e-bike. Although I’m worth it. A little more movement in these guts would do me good. Now I take the car at … Continue reading Because I’m worth it.
Fortunately, I consider myself a woman with an attitude, rather than calling myself a feminist. However, yesterday’s court order with regard to abortion rules makes me feel like we have made a severe step back into the past, like some three hundred years or so. Some words about my sexual experience As I have never … Continue reading About blending in
